so i was looking up stuff about birth control throughout history and
They say, that as heart breaks “heal” they just break a little less each day. And eventually, you are ok again.
I wish this were true.
All I can do is avoid you, because every single time I accidentally think about you…It is a literal break in my chest. I feel as if I am being ripped farther apart each time, rather than less. Like my heart is falling apart in large shavings.
Just the idea of the sight of you makes me feel physical pain. The concept of seeing you makes me terrified. The feeling of you being so distant and different is so strange and evil.
I don’t know what I feel anymore. But I do know that it is strange…
that you don’t even know where I live.